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(Mean Thoughts) Buffalo.Soldier.Come.From.The.Hmm.Hmm.Hmmm [September 21st, 2004 @ 1:51pm] [ mood | Hella Stoaked!!! ] I didn't know the rest of those lyrics... If you feel it necessary to educate me in the ways of Bob Marley. Go right ahead. I don't know why I'm writting in this thing right now. I should be doing class work... And I think I'm going to make another journal... I'm not sure though. I'll make the entry with the new journal name firends only to keep out some people. Um... Yeah. There's a new girl here. She's supposedly 14. I don't buy it. ::Watches as she walks in the room:: Yeah... Not 14! MAYA I LOVE-ED YOU!!! I LOVE-ED YOUUUUUUUU!!! Yeah dude. Maya's awesome. And yeah. If anyone would keep me here, it would be her... Smart gorgeous and ambitious... I would um... Yeah! Moving on! Maya, I will miss you. <333 "Close your butt cheeks Dave!" Okay. Peace I'm out!

(1 | Mean Thoughts) Five.Days.To.Home.Days.Seven. [September 20th, 2004 @ 8:25pm] [ mood | Eh! ] [ music | Some shitty rap song... ] Yeah. Counting down the days. Saturday I'll be home people! Woot! And what i found out tonight really pissed me off! They're getting rid of Roadrunner! Mother fucking. SHit fuck! Fuck ass! Geah! Well there's a huge possibility of me going to a boarding school in Ohio in the near future. Which will allow me to come home and on weekends and visit with all of you. Woot for that! Coronado is going downhill faster than that Bush guys election campign... Yeah. It sucks really bad. That's why I'm leaving. I don't know what else to say. I'll see most of you when I come back in a week. Later all. Much love. Nic hang in there! Maya, I love you to death. You'll go far in life. I can tell you that for a fact. Grit your teeth and beat the hell out of all these newbie sluts. Daniel, you're hella tight! Same with you Alger. That's it. I'm out.

(Mean Thoughts) Sorry. [September 16th, 2004 @ 9:50pm] A certain part of my last entry was not cool. I'm sorry Nic. I'm having enough problems already and I didn't want to hear about you skipping town without me again. And also that you wanted to talk and didn't do anything about it. I'm sorry about the comment I made.

(Mean Thoughts) What's.really.Cool?!?! [September 16th, 2004 @ 8:53pm] I'll tell you. What's cool is when you have to be stuck at a place due to legal issues and you hear that yorur best friend is thinking of skipping town again. And you can't go, because your life would then be fucked. And they say they need to speak with you on this issue and when you tell them to be on they aren't on. Now that's fucking cool! On another note I'm being put on low grade tranquilizers to get me through the rest of the quarter. Also I will probably be home again for another week sometime in the middle of the next quarter. And that's coming out of my pocket. ::Shrugs:: Looking for other school or whatever as I type... Internet is slow. I'm out. People suck. People kill people and people lose people. What else is new? The black wind howls...

(1 | Mean Thoughts) Not.Much. [September 14th, 2004 @ 8:02pm] [ mood | Still Stoaked ] [ music | ""Pretty Girl" by: Sugarcult (On repeat) ] Yeah. I don't have much to say. I'm losing points left and right. I don't care though. We have to do these dumbass homestay dealies where we go to a families house in the closest town for four hours. It counts as a part of you're spanish class and if you don't go you get points taken off from your conduct Grade... Below 80 points and you're on probation... I'm at 80 points on the dot... If I get on probby then I don't come home... Yeah. It sucks... God damn! Maya's fucking gorgeous! She just came in here. ::laughs:: Ahh... It's okay though! I'm going to fuck over the staff next term! Like hardcore peeps! Points get reset and I'll get some extra and I'll never have to do another god damn mother fucking homestay! Eat that! Nah, but seriously. I'm going to screw them over hardcore in that aspect. Oh yeah. Maya is telling me I WILL stay until April and graduate with her. I don't know about that one though. As much fun as that would be, I think I'd be found attached to a fucking internet cord from the ceiling if I had to stay here until then. ::Laughs:: Wow! That was really just a joke. Don't flip out on me people. Jesus! Throw me a friggin bone here! Hah! lager and I figured out why I'm so "angry" all the time. Lager's a cool kid first off. From Boston and kick ass. Told me some crazy shit to do when we get back Nic. ::nods:: I'll fill you in when I'm home. But the reason I'm so angry is because I am and think at higher maturity level than the majority of the students here and although I hang out wiht the others who are as mature as I am, the immature kids piss me off more than them. And that's why I'm angry... Because I have to live with a bunch of incompitent fucks that don't even know how to fucking wash their god damn laundry when they come here. Some of them have probably never had to wipe their own asses before coming here. All little rich kids with a big trust fund to live off of when they get out. So they don't need to do shit for the rest of their lives. Stupid dolts! I guess I did have a lot to say after all, eh? Yeah. Well I'm done. Later.

(Mean Thoughts) I.BEAT.CHRONO.TRIGGER.WIGA-FUCKING-BAM.HELL.YEAH.BURGER.KING.EAT.THAT.SHIT! [September 13th, 2004 @ 8:31pm] [ mood | Stoaked ] [ music | "Backmask" by: Mindless Self Indulgence ] I BEAT CHRONO TRIGGER!!!! WITH NO CODES! JUST SKILL! WIGA-FUCKING-BAM!!! Yeah. So that was the highlight of my entire week or even stay here at Coronado. My first RPG that I beat legit! Booyah! I beat FFVII but with a fucking gameshark... That's some pussy shit, eh? Yeah dude. So I'm bringing back all of my games so I have something to do here when I'm not in school. Or mayhap even something to do while in school. Hmm... ::Stroaks his face-wig and wonders:: Yeah. I should have said this the other night, but I got food poisoning the other day... It sucked. Never eat left over dinner from Costa Rica. Seriously! Like no joke! Wow! I didn't sleep at all that night, had to hop out of bed on a weekend morning at 8am and run to the god damn toilet and sit there for half hour or so... Got a short break after I started getting really effing hot and sweating like crazy then went to my room and sat in front of the door while the sweat chilled and threw up in a trash can, but nothing to throw up. So dry heaving for some what five minutes and then back to the mother fucking toilet. God damn! That really sucked. Listening to MSI right now from a fellow computer... Yeah... Other than that I don't have anything else to say. Be back in fucking 12 days mother fucker!!! W007!

(Mean Thoughts) 13.Days! [September 12th, 2004 @ 8:58pm] I'll be home in thirteen days. Hell yeah Burger King! WIGA-BAM! So be looking forward to seeing some Sean-Face! W007! Yeah... Well, I don't have much else to say. Hope to see most of you while home... Other than that. I've got shit to say. Later. I'm out!

(15 | Mean Thoughts) ::Shakes his head:: I'll be seeing Butler Tech in a wee more than 15 days... [September 10th, 2004 @ 7:14pm] I don't remember the last time I wrote i this thing. I don't even remember the last time I was on a personal computer. So yeah... Hopefully mine will be fixed by Wednesday. That would be nice. ::Nods:: Mas o menos! There's some spanish for you I guess. Yeah... I'll meet Lacey for the first time... Aparently she talk with Beth about me. I don't know her, and I don't even know if she even knows who I really am, but she's bloody gorgeous. Like whoa. Indeed. When am I going to meet her? When I show up at Butler Tech when I'm at home and say what's up to CPST Seniors and also the Broadcasting class. ::Nods:: Yeah. I AM that lame. I'm going to a school I don't attend anymore while on break from the school I do attend. ::Laughs:: I don't have much else to say. I expect this home visit to be a god one. Awkward, but good. Skateboarding with Michael and doing whatever with Meghan. Hanging ot with me Mum and Garry. Nic, I'm going to be on EQ as much as possible. So if you can't log on or get a call from me telling you I want to play. ::Laughs:: Yeah. I haven't talked to her in quite a while, but I'm assuming that Nic and Meggums wil come and visit me. And as I said, I'll be coming to Butler Tech for a while. ::Throws up hands:: Whatever. That's all. Later people.

(Mean Thoughts) elohssA.Na.Si.Ahcim [September 9th, 2004 @ 10:52am] [ mood | irate ] You know those people who you'd love to just watch die the most horrible and painful death? Yeah. I have a lot fo those fuckers here. Spherical assholes! All of them! Why spherical you ask? Because no matter what way you look at them they're always an asshole. Most of them I'd laugh with the greatest amusement while watching their skin melt of their bones and their muscles turn to ash. All while they're screaming in pain and begging for mercy. Although there would be no mercy given... I'd only pour more gasoline on their flamming carcass. ::Slightly laughs:: Others I would simply bind and gag and then proceed to cut of pieces of their face with a dull knife. Spitting in their face when they look at me in fear. Carving designs in their face with the utmost pleasure and biggest smile of revenge as I watch them die of blood loss. Oh what a glorious day... There are more things I would do, but those are the two that tease my mind the most... I think I'll finish with a quote from a band... "You fucking touch me I will rip you apart. I'll reach in and take a bite out of that shit you call a heart!!!" ~"My Plague" by: Slipknot

(Mean Thoughts) Bad.case.Of.A.Bumb.Wrist. [September 1st, 2004 @ 11:22am] Yeah. I remembered what Iw as going to say. Remember when I wrote about boxing that one night and I beat the hell out of that kid. Yeah. hurt my wrist pretty bad that night and then since then it's been getting progressivly worse. I tried to pop it the other night and that only made it hurt more and become in even worse shape. Now I have to wear this gheto wrist brace for a while and take anti-inflamatories. The doc says it's some type of mild arthrytis or something. I don't know exactly... Yeah... So it doesn't look like I'll be boxing for... Or hits for that matter. Yeah. Umm. Yeah.

(2 | Mean Thoughts) and.when.i.haver.whatever.that.means. [September 1st, 2004 @ 10:26am] [ mood | Confused, Lethargic, Nostalgic ] [ music | "You Always Say Goodnight Goodnight" by: The Juliana Theory ] Yeah. So I don't know anymore. I don't know what I'm doing here right now... I don't know. Ugh! I was going to... I don't know. People here suck. We had to fire a staff because he decided to sexually harass a girl on campus... Whatever. I don't know. I'm coming home in twenty-three days. Go me. I guess yeah. Wow am I tired and wow am I bored. Computer's brokne. Dad's an asshole. People need to die. The works, eh? Had a nice talk with Alger and Alan last night about polotics. and Governmental consperacies... Yeah. I may be back in Ohio sooner than December, but I still have to go to school. Ugh! I had something else to say, but I can't remember, nor would it really matter. So yeah. I don't I guess I'll see some of you when I come home for bvreak or something. I don't know or care...

(Mean Thoughts) 50.Terabytes.of.Isolated.Pain.Hurt.And.Anger. [August 28th, 2004 @ 7:10pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | "This Is Not An Exit" by: Saves The Day ] I guess the title fits well for those of you who undertsand it. To spimplify a Terabyte is 1000 Gigabytes... Most of your home computers only have about 40-80 Gigs of hard drive space... So yeah. But it's true. I have a lot of anger, pain, and hurt pent up inside. With no one to let it out to, it gets a bit overwhelming some times. But with or without, pushing on is what I do. Maybe what I was made to do. O.o Could you imagine that? A life of having to constantly push through things that bring you down. For whatever reason it was for... Yeah... I don't know. I think way too much. I'm sure all of you can see that. Maya was looking damn good tonight... I went in the kitchen to get some desert... When she was getting it for me I decided to turn away as to not look at her. I felt as if it would have been a sin so bad to grant death on spot if I looked at her in a way I shouldn't have. Or in general. I tried not to make too much eye contact. For the same reason... I don't know. I may just be weird. I'm sitting here in the net room by meyself... It's really weird, becuase usually someone else is in here. Normally ten other people. It's actually quite nice. ::Smiles:: I'm downloading lots of At The Drive In at insanely fast speeds for this school. I don't know if I told you this, but my laptop is broken again... The screen is cracked. Big time! Dropped the damn thing on lid and it cracked imensely. Gah! I've been using Daniel's computer and playing Secret of Mana... An old SNES game. It's awesome, but a bit redundant. Imagine Legend of Zelda mixed with Final Fantasy... battle system of Zelda, but when killing an uber Zelda monster that takes bunch more hits to kill you get exp. And then you level up and get cool shit... And you have three Zelda character to play as and they follow each other and all use a different type of magic or weapon that is needed in many battles. Thus being forced to switch between them constantly and having to heal all of them and whoa! It's crazy. I likes it though. I don't know what else to say. Someone comment with soem good bands you know I'd like. I'm running out of stuff to download. And CD Now is starting to go in circles with related searches... Ugh! Later.

(Mean Thoughts) Babble.Babble.Bitch.Bitch.What?!?! [August 27th, 2004 @ 7:42pm] [ mood | Lost ] [ music | "Falling Out Of Love At This Volume" by: Bright Eyes ] There's a new bitch on campus. She's absolutely hideous. At first seeing her I didn't know whether to throw up on her shoes or laugh in her face. Not to mention she's dumb as hell. Ugh! And more gils will be coming... I don't know what else to say. I seem to say the same shit over every night. Maya's hella tight. I feel bad for her. And I wish I could do something more for her. And I wish could do a lot of other things for her too. And no. Not what you're all thinking. Fucking perverts. Some of the sweet things I did before. Stuff that would throw everybody off like whoa, if they say it. Yes everyone. There is another side of Sean you don't and probably won't ever see... ::Sighs:: I'm downloading Sugarcult right now... I don't know why after I saw, "Bouncing off the walls again" And yeah. That song isn't even worthy of having all caps as I normally do. Although I have had some good times to that song, Nina, it's annoying as hell. Birght Eyes is amazing... I'm going to shudap now... Someone give me some good bands to download! PLEASE! ::Coughs:: Nic... ::Coughs:: Later.

(Mean Thoughts) Look.Behind.The.Lies.And.Into.The.Truth. [August 26th, 2004 @ 8:20pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | "My Friends Over You" by: New Found Glory ] I don't know why I titled my entiry that. It just came to mind and I thought it was a pretty cool thing to say. So yeah. I don't have much to say really. We had group tonight. It wazs pretty cool. We talked shit about this dumb pathetic bitch here. And then we said what we thought other people said about us behind our backs. And according to everyone I hit the nail on the head for myself! ::Laughs:: Yeah. The shit that is said about me is, "I'm very negative and angry. I'm an asshole and I bitch too much. I'm John Brown's bitch. Am an emo kid, and will be the next Steven. Also that I'm Bi..." Now to explain the Steven thing. That's because Steven liked emo music also. And because he talked to JB a lot as well. John Brown's bitch?... I don't know where that came from. And they say bi like it's a bad thing. Now I'm not going to say I'm bi, because if I did. I'd be no different than m ost of the bi people in the world. I have never had any type of intimate relationship with a boy and I don't know if I ever will. Let alone have I ever done anything. Although I will say I am a firm beliver in it doesn't matter what sex a person is. If they're you're soul and your's are connected, then that's who you should be with. Now if that makes me bi than yeah. I am. So yeah. I am an asshole. And I am very negative along with angry. So yeah. I don't consider that bad. Indeed. Bitching too much. Eh! I can see it. And emo kid? Damn right! Got a problem with it and this little emo boy will beat your ass. ::laughs:: And I will too. get me in the ring and it's on! Outside... No... I have a fun weekend ahead of me. Tomorrow I go to play pool in Jaco. Saturday I'm going surfing in the morning. Then come back here long enough to eat and take a shower and then I'm off to San Jose to see a martial arts tournament and then disco bowling after that. Sunday... We have some homestay family BBQ dealy going on here. Guh! Oh well. Other than that. Not too much to say. ::Nods:: Later guys.

(2 | Mean Thoughts) Stop.Making.Your.Words.Mantic. [August 25th, 2004 @ 9:16pm] Good news... I'll be home for a week in September most deffinately. Bad news... I'm really nervous about it. I don't know how I'm going to look everyone in the eye after all of this. I didn't put too much thought into it before, but the thought of it really kind of scares me... And then there's a big perdicament I'm in over how to hang out with friends. Mum doesn't want me to go out of the house and she asked if Nic could come and visit me there. I told her that wasn't a problem so I guess we'll throw a little soda party in the basement. NO DRUGS OR ALCOHOL TO WHOEVER COMES TO SEE ME GOD DAMMIT!!! And I have other friends who want to see me as well, but some of them don't play well with other friends of mine... So I don't know how that's going to work. Um... Me Da's an ass! I'd rather die than be a father like him. ::Nods:: Indeed! Maya is hella tight and I feel bad for her. She seems frustrated aboot something. I feel compelled to do something for her, but I don't know what to do. Yeah. And other things too, but uh... Yeah. Moving on! My computer is broken AGAIN... Screen cracked and it's going to be expensive to replace and also a while because of these fucking Costa Ricans and their petty strikes... The IT guy is stuck in San Jose until the strikes over. Why? Because these damn people blocked off all the roads from here to every major part of the country. Gaah! I was able to hook the lappy onto an actual monitor and something else went haywire when it got dropped. I don't even know. And me Da's probably going to be a dick about it and not help Mum pay for the replacment... Fucker. I don't know what else. I'll be home in September... For a week. Yeah. Nic... tell me what your taking from my room. Mum told me you wanted to come and get some games... if it's any Xbox games don't take them, because I'm getting that sent down here. If it's something else go for it... As long as it's not FF7 either... Everything else I think will be fine, just let me know what your ganking... ::Smiles:: Love you Nicums... Night all.

(1 | Mean Thoughts) Drug.Induced.Sleep.Well. [August 23rd, 2004 @ 8:34pm] [ mood | Drug induced sleep well ] Yeah. I had a very exhausting day. I got an email from my dad and it pissed me off really bad. I hate that fuck. So after I was ready to rip some faces off I called Mum. with me being histerical about everything that's been bothering me and her not being home and on the cell, the conversation didn't go anywhere. Later, around three, Douglas came in and talked to me about everything. I told him what I thought of my dad and what I was going to say to my mother about it all. We had a nice conversation. First time we've talked within the past five weeks I mind you. I got new headphones... Some brand I've never heard of before, but they work. They're all nifty and fold up and junk. Yeah. Computer is broken again. I'm using Daniel's. Mine will be fixed tomorrow. Something went wrong with the OS (opperating system) and then when I tried to put XP on it that didn't work either. So I'll go check it with Hamlet tomorrow and tell him the OS went haywire and then I tried to fix it myself with XP... And he'll just put 2k back on and everything will be fine. Although I'm going to have to delete the other two OS's i put on the same partition... ::Chuckles:: I'm such a nerd. Guh! I was given some of my old meds around 2:30 this afternoon. And I'm quite tired. I've been fighting falling asleep because the meds have let m mind wander from place to place. not stopping on one thing for too long. It's nice. I wish I could do it without meds. I get another pill at nine. So yeah. I'll be knocked out. ::Thinks:: ::Thinks more:: I'm making a video game for an English project on Beowolf. It's a lmae ass game, but we only had two weeks to mkae it. But it's hella funny. And we're going to get an A on it. Because no one besides me and Alger know how to program at this school. ::Nods:: Yeah... "I'm sorry! But givin' a girl a foot massage and stickin' your tongue in the holiest of holes are two completely different things! They're not in the same ball park... Shit! They're not even the same game!" ~Pulp Fiction Guh! I have nothing to do online tonight. I can't download any songs. i don't have bearshare I think I'll get him that tonight. So later.

(Mean Thoughts) Deep.Ache.For.The.Deep.Mind. [August 20th, 2004 @ 7:41pm] [ mood | Chill ] [ music | "The Invasion From Within" by: Tsunami Bomb ] I've got this wicked bad head ache. I've had it for quite some time now. It's severity flucutates. Is tolerable sometimes, unbareable others. Right now more unbareable than anything. I know what it's from too. ::Get's up to tunr on the A/C:: It's from this damn head I have. I think too much. And I hate it. But that's just the way things work, eh? Maya told me something interesting today. It made me smile and blush from the other side of the academic department... T'was hella cute. But I think she'd rather that kept between us. Daniel's been hanging out in my room a lot. He's pretty anti-social as well. We usually meet up at lunch, grab our food and go back to my room to eat. Same with dinner. After school we just chill in my room and play video games all day. He's a pretty cool kid. Nic, he wants to meet you. ::Shurgs:: Other than that I don't know if I'll be home for September break. I haven't spoken on the phone with my rents for cose to five weeks now. And I've only sent two emails asking them about the home visit. If I don't come home, no worries guys. It'll just be another three months and I'll be home for good. ::Sighs:: Whatever. Oh! Back to Lady Maya for a second... She thinks I "hate" her. And that's completly stupid... It's the exact opposite really. I want her hardcore like whoa! And therefore I stay away from her, because I don't know if she wants the same, and if she doesn't than I don't want to ruin what we already have... So yeah. Just for the record. I don't hate Maya... That's really all I have to say. Later guys.

(1 | Mean Thoughts) None.More.Than.Shit. [August 18th, 2004 @ 9:48pm] [ mood | Bored out of my effing mind ] So this new kid Daniel came like four days ago. I didn't say shit to him for the first two. Yesterday I talked to him for the first time. He's a pretty cool kid. A lot like myself actually. Except starigh-edge... ::Shrugs:: Whatever floats his boat and keeps him from sinking. Not my style, but he's still cool. I sent me parental units an email today. Asked them if they were even allowing me to come home in September. I haven't talked with them in four weeks now. I told them what I would like to do and told them what I wouldn't do. Would like to do lots of shit with Nic and Meggums and Reeder. See Nina for a short while. Say hi to Nate and Beth if she cares to. Also go to work and say hey to all the peeps there. And other than that just chill in my room and do shit on me hella tight computer. And then I told her I wouldn't do drugs and drive the car without her. And I don't like liquor so I don't see meself doing that. I did tell her that I wasn't going to commit to not smoking cigs though. That I didn't want to fuck myself up more, but I would try hard not to. Other than those things I don't really care what she wants. Other news... Not much. I miss home like crazy and this school sucks my ass. I guess that's not news though. It's kind of olds, or something... Yeah. That was hella stupid. I guess I have nothing else to say. Maya is Mistress Spoob. Todd's Lord Spoob. And I'm peon spoob. ::Chuckles:: Yeah.

(2 | Mean Thoughts) Sex.With.A.God. [August 17th, 2004 @ 9:24pm] [ mood | Disturbed ] [ music | "The Swiss Army Romance" by: Dashboard Confessionals ] Okay. I have what I think will be a short entry... And I shall start it with a question... Well not start, because it;s already started, but uh... Yeah. You get the drift. If you could have sex with a god or god like being... Would you? I want everyone who reads this to take the five minutes that mean nothing in the course of a day a reply. Wether you want to tell me to shut the fuck up for being blasphomous or agreeing juts sayin yes... Please. I want to know. Because I personally know three people! Who have. So eat that. And to stump you even more... I am not one of them. ::Laughs:: Nic! Are you liking this questiong yet!?!? ::Laughs hard:: Okay. Thanks for you're time to those who read and comment. <333 to all!

(1 | Mean Thoughts) Lost.Thoughts.Of.A.Lost.Boy. [August 16th, 2004 @ 9:29pm] [ mood | Restless,hatefilled,spiteful ] [ music | "Why You'd Want To Live Here" by: Death Cab For Cutie ] So I haven't really left my room at all today. Only to go watch a movie with my roomates in the student lounge and to get on the net. I, like Nic, have no purpose in getting online anymore. No one is ever on. I don't recieve any emails and really the only reason I'm on every night is because there isn't anything better to do than write in this journal and download music while staring at a buddy list that never seems to change. Same people on every night. Same status every night as well. Away. Occasionally I'll find someone to talk with for five minutes, but hey! What the hell, ya know? I don't know what else to say without sounding insane. Which is well, yeah. Nevermind. Uh... Yeah. Later.

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